If you watch our vlogs, you’ll know we took Addison to the beach for the first time last week. On the way to the beach, Addison peed all over her car seat and then all over the floor in Publix, because somehow we forgot diapers, and swimmy diapers apparently hold NOTHING. She didn’t like the cold water. The sun shade we had bought just for the occasion wasn’t what we thought it was going to be, therefore it didn’t work out. Our GoPro was full of footage that we forgot to delete so as soon as we went to use it, the SD was full- and because we have the GoPro Session, I had to delete footage off my phone (GoPro app) which isn’t a 123 process. Of course after all of that, Addison had enough; so after the first 20 minutes, she was a little Sass McSass and wanted nothing to do with the beach.
Of course at the time, I was a little stressed and almost couldn’t wait to leave, thinking I probably wasn’t even going to attempt that again since the whole beach event was miserable from start to finish. Then I thought, how can I be so ungrateful? First let me say that I don’t see myself as an ungrateful, unappreciative person, but I am human after all and sometimes let my feelings get the best of me. I have mild anxiety and sometimes get overwhelmed easily. It’s no excuse, but it effects me. In that moment I was annoyed, stressed, and upset that our beach day didn’t go as planned.
Just a couple of weeks ago, my sister miscarried her first baby. Even though it is so common, it doesn’t take the hurt away. I’ve never had to experience something like that, but being a mother myself, I just can’t imagine the pain and can only hope that I never have to go through that nor anyone else I know. How lucky am I that I am able to have beach days with my little girl, miserable or not? There are plenty of women out there, including my sister who either miscarry, or can’t have children for biological reasons. There are so many people who struggle to start a family, and here I am P.O’d that my beach day wasn’t perfect.
On a regular basis, I stop to think about what my life would be like without my husband and my daughter just to make sure that I love and appreciate them with every ounce of me, because sometimes it can be easy to settle into a routine. I am lucky, I am lucky to have a husband that loves me unconditionally, who sets an exceptional example of a good man to our daughter, and our beautiful little girl. She lights up my life, and now, I can’t even believe I ever had a life before her. Good and bad moments are all great moments, because I have my family.
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